ºanother day, another project 365 postº

it seems that i have let life run with me once more and missed my 5 day deadline from the project 365 that i am working on. you will now be forced to suffer through another dreadful 10 days at once. *cue dramatic music*

some nights you just need music and candles

Jan 16th

Parks with artificial light have an alluring quality 

Jan17th

working out in the batcave

jan 18th

finding beauty in all unlikely places

jan 19th

pre-ordered vinyls from an old favorite

jan 20th

enjoying the disney magic from my nightly gym routine

jan 21st 

cats have the ability to heal your sad soul

jan 22nd

spending so much time at the gym means you find strange things to photograph in the stair wells

jan 23rd

waking up well before the sun to ensure that you get the prefect light and location 

jan 24th

always chasing sunrises or sunsets, grateful for how beautiful both have been as of late

jan 25th

all images © Delicate Decay Photography

I know it's over º And it never really began º But in my heart it was so real

there were so many plans for the 'Epic Road Trip' conclusion post and that post will still come, but at a later day when i am feeling less inclined for nostalgia. at the moment i am sitting in my bed trying not to let my mind do that thing it does where it cares too much for things that don't care about it. it is a very tiring process, let me tell you. 

in the past few months i have had a cleansing of sorts. i feel like for a good portion of my life i have been surrounded by tragedy and sadness and chaos and i am finally at a point where i won't take it anymore. being an empathic person and always trying to keep everyone else's little ducks in a row has gotten me to a point where there is nothing left for me and i am questioning things and people that i have always put complete faith into. let me tell you kids, the people you love the most break your hearts the worst. i know that it doesn't HAVE to be that way, but it just is. it is until you take a stand and break your own heart so you can be reborn. 

and so, here i am. new and clean. fresh and ready to wander and explore the world with my cameras and my words. ready to meet new people and to open myself up to a happy life, a happy place. where i don't have to question every action or inaction. where i can be still and trust in the moment, trust in this life. 

in a way this is actually a partial conclusion to the 'Epic Road Trip' because it was that trip that really opened my eyes. i found so much peace and understanding from those moments of silence and laughter and wonder and eeriness. i realized that i am a person worth knowing, worth fighting for, worth the effort and i can't take any less than i put in. 

i need people with truth and integrity and faithfulness surrounding me. i believe that all people can be those things and we shouldn't strive to be anything less, not just for those around us, but for ourselves. to all of those that i have waved goodbye to in the last year, i still love you, but i love me more. come find me when you love yourselves more too, i think we could really share a wonderful story together. 

'Sunrise Over Grand Canyon'

'Jen's Ray of Hope'

all images © Delicate Decay Photography

.Chasing Trains. Chasing Lights.

Sometimes random adventures to cheer up your friend yields some really great memories and photo opportunities. 

As of late i have also felt like i was in a sort of rut/funk and i was determined to pull myself out of it. Once i throughly cried and netflixed/stuck my head in a book for a good 24 hours anyway. 

I emerged ready for making the most of the situations i find myself in and so last night i chased some trains and chased the sun and lived my life through my camera lens. 

'Black Hole Sun'

'The Change Over'

'The American Dream'

'Rooftop Trips'

'The Explorer'

all images © Delicate Decay Photography